Women

Different shapes, feels

and  traits

Just like the color ways

of flowers

- unique in every way

i stopped believing in soul-mates when i lost what i thought was mine.

and then - you came and proved me wrong.

oh how wrong you proved me.

heartbeat -

fast, strong

but with a sense of calmness

soothing me and my inner mess

Life ...

​

the small things -

the birds singing,

the last, free

spot in the sun

the random

encounters

reading the first page of a new book

waking up with a smile

​

... is good.

Understanding that

everything happens for a reason - I mean, really knowing

what that means

and accepting it

makes the journey called life

so much easier.

Every step,

if it is one on a dark path

or a light path is there for YOU! It’s either there

to make you understand something or to bless you.

Let that sink in,

think about it -

be true to yourself

and look back and analyse -

go deep, go inward

and you will understand

RISE - RISE HIGH MY LOVE AND LEAVE THE FEAR BEHIND - THERE IS NO NEED FOR IT NO MORE.

she looked up

tears flowing down like waterfalls.

She prayed to be able to get over him - every single night

without knowing who she was talking to she hoped for her prayers to be heard

and all of the sudden

she began to find the answer herself -

the healing began

We detach ourselves from nature

everyday

​

getting lost -

scrolling and swiping pictures

into the endless depths

of IG, FB & co.

​

Re-connect-

Feel the grass with naked feet, close your eyes and feel

the raindrops on your skin,

hug a tree, dive in,

feel the energy,

ground yourself

and re-balance

​

The urge to shift some parts of my life became so loud, there was no way of ignoring it any longer.

-

and i will now rise out of the ashes of the old me and embrace the new version with acceptance for possible missteps along the way to find my highest potential.

I feel blocked

in so many ways

on so many levels on so many days - lately

I am grateful

for the willingness to grow

and for being able

to accept the vulnerability

needed to do so

blooming-

growing-

shining

from within,

 like a flower awakened after wintertime

by the first

rays of sunshine.

I can feel my wings spreading, slowly - bit by bit- almost ready to take off and fly over my life to give me the widespread view i need to fully grasp the transition im experiencing

I am consciously Choosing to cry Choosing to miss you

Choosing to feel the pain -

The pain that is still there

It never left me

It always returns,

To remind me of you

insecurities lurking in all of us - waiting for the right opportunity to come to the surface and fuck with our minds.

" I AM FIERCE -

I AM STRONG -

I AM FEARLESS."

 

SHE TELLS HER REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR BEFORE SHE LEAVES HER

SAFE PLACE,

HER COMFORTZONE, HER HOME -

TO STEP OUTSIDE AND CONQUERE THE WORLD.

The lines of my body

- Curvy -

shaping a full

round warmth

under these sheets -

reminding you

of the sun

good morning beautiful,

you are enough -

you are more than enough.

in fact you are awesome, you are smart, you are pretty, you are a good person and you deserve the world. you deserve everything you desire and more.

you are worthy of all of your wishes. and they will all come to you if you just believe.

believe in yourself, your worth and the fact that you can have everything you desire.

Don’t let this world destroy your inside

he said

If you only knew

that it’s your absence that destroys me

she thought

the day "us" died was way before we seperated.

Ever looked into fire?

Observing that spark insight?

Covered in those protective

- almost aggressive,

moving waves of flames?

That was me

- And you

You used to be my spark.

Seeing you increases

my pain immeasurably

It feels like

your pain swaps over to me -

without fully understanding,

it leaves me shattered

all over again.

And I spend the next moons

trying to put together the

pieces of my heart

Own the pain

Own the struggle

Own the tears

Own all of this mess

In order to grow out of it

And be a better version

of yourself

I still think of you sometimes -

When I touch myself

Today i felt like crying - not for me but for all of those who cry daily - just so they didnt have to for once.

I don’t want to feel

this way no more

I don’t want

to want you no more

I don’t want

to miss you no more

I don’t want

to cry over you no more

And yet I do

Im feeling like a Goddess today

Appreciating my curves Embracing my flaws

Honoring my womanhood

Im feeling like a Goddess today

i feel so much -

i feel it all -

without exception.

TODAY WAS A DAY OF REFLECTION.

A DAY OF LITTLE BUT IMPACTFUL SIGN.

SINGS UNDENYABLY CONNECTED TO RECENT DECISIONS I MADE. THANK YOU FOR GUIDING ME - MY INNER VOICE.

I am strong

I can own this

I know I can

But I don’t want to

I want to be weak

I want to miss you now - Because this

makes me feel closer to you

Probably closest

I’ll ever get to you again

Feeling liberated

Liberated by my own achievements -

Achievements

I would’ve never worked for

if it wasn’t for me

facing life alone again

I never thought

I could feel

this good again Finding myself,

my worth,

my passion

- me

How do you fix something

when you don’t know

it’s broken?

ed?

Like waves in the ocean

my body shapes

in forms of roundness

Moving under these sheets Feeling full and warm and loved

I used to run from loneliness,

Facing my inner self,

my inner voice -

So life forced me to spend time with myself

and it made me shake from crying

like I never cried before,

it made me question life - my life,

it made me loose my mind sometimes..

But loneliness also taught me

who I was, who I am and who I want to be